Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Pink - I Don't Believe You
"Freedom is not free." -unknown authorIt's officially two weeks to 2010.
I realized something these few days - everyone is reminding themselves about upcoming 2010, and keeps saying that the year of 2009 happens pretty fast, despite all of those little and big things [big things? oh yeah... big things.] happened this year. Myself, to be honest - will be missing 2009 majorly because I finished my school officially this year and there were so many drastic changes that I saw in my life, including myself.
Getting to know new circles of friends, clicking in with friends that I didn't realize earlier that they are better than the rest of my "before-called" friends, learning new lessons of life, exploring new interests, sitting my SPM [yeah, call that a change] - what do I have to lose? Instead of regretting it, I found out that I was too relieved to know that I've passed all the 'Test of Life' for 2009; and I'll be sure ready to face the new chapter of 2010. I keep saying, "God, I hate my life" or "Why do I have to face all these craps?" or "What makes them better than me?" - you know, all those rantings and so-called complaints.
But when I reflect all those rantings back, they're just another excuses for me to face the whole ordeal about life. Or sometimes, I use those rantings to deny. That's the word: D E N Y.
Get ready to people who think I'm such a useless bitch.
Get ready to all those people who see me as an uninvited stranger in their lives.
Get ready to all those people who think I'm such a dumb girl.
Get ready to all those people who think I'm imperfect when they actually ARE in the same league as I am.
Get ready to all those people who think I'm just the next failure.
Because I'm ready to take the challenge.
Go on and beat me ahead, and see if whatever you said with your tongues before will walk as the way you show yourselves.
Well, whatever it is - 2010 is coming soon! Whoopee! :)
The day you cease to change is the day you begin to die - unknown author

Yesterday, me and my friends - Hazel, Rachel, Janet and featuring Angelcy who came back from Kuching for a short break of her diploma took a little sweet time in Centre Point for my so-belated birthday lunch which was sponsored by - me :) Yeah, you know; it's a tradition in them for whoever birthday is coming up, birthday girl has to spend her friends for the day.
Well, thank God mom gave me a RM50 note - just enough to feed everyone a splendid feast.
I'm not saying anything but this is the first time I went out since SPM finished over 2 weeks ago. Like really went out for an outing, and not just for some dumb personal reasons - which I did sometimes. Okay, by the way - we met somewhere at 12.30 pm or somewhere at that time in Pacific Ngiukee [oh, btw did I tell you that I met Christiannie; my long-lost kindergarten friend? omg, I was so shocked to see her yesterday! happy happy happy time! okay then, back to the story...] and we made up our minds to go to eat at McDonalds...-
-That was before we knew that McD was full of people, seriously. So we went to eat at Kyros Kebab and talked about our lives. It was splendid after all; having long talks in a small, quiet place - thanks to Janet who suggested tha place and just had the place to ourselves.
After that, me and Janet watched Couple's Retreat together, and it was horrendously, tremendously funny! I was so glad that I got to watch Couple's Retreat at the end of the day and oh yeah, we got to meet Gwen, Chyna and Sarah along the way. Haha, typical - meeting in a clothing store and ended up watching movie together in cinema.
Well, I think I wrote too long. Seriously.
I'll stop here then.
Before that...


Labels: 2009, 2010, change, random
♥ nina.sha ♥
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year 2009! Let's celebrate, where's the beers and pokers?Just joking. Whatever. Just look at the goddamned survey (if you considered that a survey) :)Q: Resolution?- 11A for SPM. go to Kursk Medical University in Russia. get the scholarship. be rich ;]Q: Will you be active in ko-kum this year?- guess not. i'm quiting forum and maybe debate, but not camps. a camp lover, honestly.Q: How's your first day of school is going to be?- dunno. sucks maybe? or happy? mixed feelings? god, i feel suck at myself.Q: Made any purchase lately on 2009?- soon. already made with venda. right venda?Q: Recent things you bought in 2009?- how would i remember? wait, stationary. no, books. whatever.Q: Play games during the New Year? What games?- yeah, i play the whole time. harvest moon a wonderful life is the best. or the sims. god, they rock.Q: Any embarassing moment happened so far?- nope. not yet.Q: Recent tv shows you watch?- banyak sekalinya. jangan kau tanya.Q: Did you go anywhere to celebrate New Year?- nah. stay at home, trying to rot myself into a zombie.Q: Having your phobias lately or nightmares?- yeah. maybe. dunno, dun remember.Q: Random words you would say after you woke up from your sleep.- "kamu sudah sarapan?"Q: The Simpsons or American Dad?- the simpsons. Q: Miss anyone lately on New Year or recently?- yeah, lots of them.Q: Best thing that happened in your life so far, on holidays?- food! no bah. kau rasa?Q: Latest person you meet?- duh. my brat sister.Q: Recent messages you sent to somebody?- jane maybe. through facebook.Q: Do you own any gadgets now?- yeah. my mp4, but no handphone, it's rosak mati sudah.Q: Did you cry for a guy lately?- ish. no. dun have boyfriend.Q: What did you do most of the holidays then?- makan. tidur. belajar yang kurang asam. main game. on9. tengok tv. balik kampung. masak. itu ja. boring kan?Q: Shopping mall?- karamunsing ja. ndak boleh pi jauh-jauh. bukan pandai drive.Q: Stuffs to do after SPM?- driving lessons. enjoy holiday. probably NS *cross fingers, hoping not to* tunggu results macam kerang busuk at home. maybe take something.Q: What age do you think that a person is suitable to get married?- far thinking. dunno, i'm single.Q: Birthday presents last year for your sweet 16?- NONE. dun ask me why :(Q: Chocolate; bittersweet or dairy milk?- dairy milk.Q: Things that you heard from the world recently.- barrack obama the president. bush kena lempar kasut (ahaha). twilight is the best (eew, twilight sucks like shit). lots of craps and bullshits.Q: Your nicknames?- shaz, sha, nini, nina, dodol and a lot more.Q: What jurusan you wanna ambil later for university?- medical. i want to be a surgeon.Q: If you cannot?- then i'll take forensic science.Q: If you cannot also?- get off. boleh that if me.Q: The first person you want to meet in school on the 5th?- my friends :)Thta's it. I'm off.Labels: 2009, quiz, random
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