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Thursday, June 19, 2014
stronger, 3:22 PM, 0 comments
After a short series of depressive rants, I've finally realised that I cannot keep on writing how my days had been very awful these past few weeks. Somehow, I have to stop being this whiny girl, just because things are not going my way. I mean, sometimes things are not going well as planned and as a grown woman, I have to suck it up, move on, and do whatever I supposed to do, right?
That's life. You should have the fair share of everything; the good times, the better times, the best times, the bad times, the worse times, the worst times. This is just one of God's works, he's giving the share of good times for other people to enjoy them, and I had my share before. So yeah, let's just enjoy these bad times and there will be better times. After all, God won't be so mean to give me bad times forever, will He?
Hey, the world doesn't always shine but it won't rain forever.
I still have faith, because I know He won't fail me. God has never disappointed anyone before, like I tell you - it's just one of the times He gives me my fair share of hard times. I mean, He has given me so many good stuffs in life, and I know I will get my fair share again when the time finally permits. So yeah, always keep the faith.
Moreover, I can't keep on being an unhappy writer, can I? What people think of me when they see all my previous posts? They might be having the impression, oh she is hitting the rock bottom, she is thinking about suicide. Like come on, I am not that low to think about taking my own life, even though I maybe, in some way, hit the rock bottom.
I am not that crazy yet, and that's what religion for. To differentiate what is right and what is wrong. To control you from doing the stupid things. Death is inevitable, but killing yourself is not exactly one of the best choice to create an ending to your life story.
Enough with this talk. Anyway.
The progress of my reworks is slow, but I know I will finish them.
The results is still not showing, but I can wait.
PEOPLE, I WILL MAKE YOU GUYS PROUD.
(AH YOU OPERATIVE SURGERY WHY ARE YOU SO HARD BUT FOR THE SAKE OF THE FREEDOM OF CLINICAL YEAR AND GRADUATING ON TIME, I WILL DO THIS FOR YOU. IF YOU ARE A HUMAN, YOU ARE ONE LUCKY BRAT BECAUSE I HAVE GAIN SO MUCH PATIENCE JUST FOR YOU, YOU BLOODY, BLOODY SUBJECT HOW WILL I SURVIVE I ALSO DON'T KNOW BUT I CAN DO THIS I KNOW I CAN)
So yeah. Chins up, smile to the world, and move on.
Oh, on an unrelated note, I finally cooked something proper to be eaten after so long! Oh, the heaven! No picture was taken, because I ate as soon as I finished washing the dishes. It wasn't an extravagant dish, but I was full and that was a good sign! I mean, I've been skipping breakfast, and these days - I have no fixed time for eating, I may eat only once a day, somewhere at midnight. That bad, I know.
Gosh, my life routine has changed since I've started my marathon on finishing my reworks for Operative Surgery and Russian Language subject. These are roughly my activities for the day:
- Wake up early in the morning
- Prepare myself (take a bath, brush my teeth, wash my face, wear set of fresh clothes)
- Go to the university, straight to the Operative Surgery department
- Go back to my room, and eat something to satisfy my hunger
- Study for Operative Surgery and try to remember my texts for Russian Language - until late at night
- Sleep
BORING, I KNOW. HAHAHA.
To be honest, I've never spent so much time in a department before. Imagine, coming to the department in the morning, earlier than the teachers and going back only after 4.30-5.30 pm. That department can be my second house already, I can spend my whole day there. They should make a café inside the department, so that I don't have to starve for the whole day. Heh.
It's okay, if I can take my Hygiene final exam on the 28th, ah the burdens that I have to carry will become lesser. Please just let me do my Hygiene final exam, I have so much other things that I need to settle. Teachers for Hygiene subject, please be good.
p/s: I found it funny when my friends said the Russian Language final exam will start at 8.00 am tomorrow morning. Like what is that, I can't even. I understand if it's Physiology or any other important subject, but Russian Language. Seriously? I snorted, and I knew it wasn't polite to snort. But I couldn't help it - it was just too funny.
♥ nina.sha ♥