There have been so many times in life that I feel like I'm not enough for almost everything.

Not being smart enough.

Not being hardworking enough.

Not being pretty enough.

Not being kind enough.

Not being friendly enough.

Not being good enough.

Not being religious enough.

Not wearing the right clothes.

Not eating the right food.

Not finding the right decision.

Not reading the right book.

Not being the right friend.

If there is one thing that I realised what have I been doing in my life all this while, that is - I try hard to be the right one for everything. I listen, I advise, I try to tell the right thing, I try to provide when in need, I pray hard to God; please ease their burdens, please take care of them during my absences, please provide them more than what I have provided them.

I don't need to be thanked for, I don't even expect anything in return - let alone I want people to remember whatever good deeds I've done to them. I don't need all that. 

I'd just like to know that for once, I was enough.

There are times where I feel like crying, and saying sorry to everyone for not providing enough, for not listening enough, for not giving enough, for not spending my time enough, for not being enough for every single thing. I feel sad. It's like, I fail to give all in everything that others need. 

Then it struck me.

I've come to the term that - I will never be enough, not even for myself.

Maybe that's one reality fact that I have to live with for the rest of my life. Even so, if only, for once - I am enough for someone, if not everyone.

♥ nina.sha ♥