simply because I don't know what to put as a title, although my brain is full of inspirations right now.

Up until now, it's been almost one week since I came back to Malaysia and sadly to say, I haven't really done anything productive. Well, I don't count fetching my youngest sister from school and succumbing myself to Running Man marathons as productive things to do. I supposed to send off things to my seniors; one who is living just around KK and another one is in Kelantan, but so far I haven't done any of it yet. I fear that I might even left the paper which was written on it the address of Kak Aysha in Kursk - which means, if it is true, then I have to ask her once again for her address.

I have planned to do so many things to utilize my summer break, and yet none of them is done yet. I plan to study Biology, Anatomy and prepare as much as I can for the next semester - but so far I'm just lazing around the house the whole day, eating and sleeping (how can one not become fatter if those are the only things that he will do during the holidays? =.="). I did get some materials from Fazilah, a Foundation in Science friend of mine who currently doing her medical studies in UMS.

Apparently, she's doing her supplementary exams to improve her grades. I remembered, two days after my homecoming, I visited her. We shared our stories studying as medical students - and turned out, yeah - being a medical student isn't an easy journey. Well, I'm aware of that fact when I decided to major in medicine over biotechnology (don't get me started on my rantings on how incredible biotechnology programme is). Successfully got through the tough first semester, I cannot breath calmly for now - not just yet. I still have a long road of journey awaits for me.

Honestly, at this point - I do, sometimes, question myself whether this is actually what I really want to do. I'm not being bias, but just so you know - what I learned during taking biotechnology programme for a semester is a bit similar to medicine, just that biotechnology students don't learn anatomy and histology. But they do learn about microbiology, genetics and biochemistry. Hmmm, I really need more time to think about this again and again.

Maybe to those who don't know me well might be thinking that medicine isn't really my first choice or I'm doing it for my parents' sake bla bla bla. But then, to tell the truth - I've been wanting this since I was five. My SPM flunked badly and I didn't actually... felt emotional. But then, after doing Foundation in Science and didn't get the pointer as I wanted, I felt down. And guess what? I cried when I didn't get to do medical degree in UMS. Um, now I don't know why I'm feeling like this.

Maybe it's environment factor. Or maybe my heart finally changes its directions. I don't know either.

Anyways, let's talk back about spending my summer break wisely (uh huh, this is what happen when I starts ranting). I might have to cut down a few plans, like going to Sandakan. Maybe not this time, but I still have more time next year - if my practical attachment in hospital (InsyaAllah) finishes early or starts late. But one thing that is definitely I am doing is going to watch the wedding solemnisation of my friends, Aboy and Nabilah :) Alhamdulillah, both will tie the knot on this upcoming 25th August. 

♥ nina.sha ♥