Once you started a challenge, you cannot simply left it unfinished. So, second post of the day :P

1. Not reconnecting with the people that I used to be close with. Not that I don't want to, but due to the huge gap that existed between us, I'm doubting that we can reconnect as easy as that. But one thing for sure; I'm not blaming high school for this.

2. Not studying hard for SPM. This was entirely my fault. I know I can, it's just that I didn't try as hard as I could that time. If only I was given a time machine, this is one of the things that I would like to change because I wouldn't have to burden my parents so much now.

3. Liking somebody from the same course. This is so embarrassing, since most of the girls knew about this and some of the boys from my course. Now come to think of it, I feel like throwing up for liking him in the first place, and some of my Foundation in Science still tease to me about it.

4. Copy answers during tests or exams. Although I do that (sometimes), but I do feel guilty for doing it at least. Not copying answers during tests or exams is one of the motivation that I will always remember because not only it's cheating, it's a sin, I'm aware of that thank you very much. I want to get a degree in the most honest way as possible, it's better that way.

5. Discontinue my Dance Dance Revolution mania. I used to play this a lot together with Cassey, Valerie and Satmit after SPM finished. We would go to 1 Borneo just to play on the dance machine. At least, it keeps me healthy and increases my flexibility. Oh how I missed those times. Oh yeah, can I include not taking dance classes in this list?

6. I think this is overlapping with the second point, but honestly. I burden my parents just too much, especially my mum since she is the one who actually supports most of our education fees. I have to admit, out of all the siblings, I am the one whom my parents have to spend their money for the most. Now that I am studying abroad, without any scholarship, they have to bank-in my allowance. If I have to use more money for paying fees or buy anything, they will have to bank-in more money. Sometimes, I feel like crying when I think about how are they doing in Malaysia; do they have enough money to survive through the month, do they have the money to send to my brother who is studying in Perak? Honestly, if I ever get hooked to a bloody scholarship, I will be luckiest girl alive.

I think there are a lot of things that I would like to write about, but all of these will have to wait for next time. Ehem, brace yourself because I might write more than one post a day.

♥ nina.sha ♥